Sometimes when I suspect someone hates me, or I did something really stupid earlier, I creep around their Facebook and social networks for clues to confirm my suspicions… I’ve noticed this habit lately. I realized a long time ago that I do look for clues in demeanor and such automatically when talking to people whom I think might dislike me, or whom I’m afraid will if I fuck up, but not this thing. Though it’s a much more active habit. Or rather, I knew I was doing it in that moment, but not that it was possibly an unhealthy pattern… I should stop…@1 day ago
do u ever lie on ur side and a small tear leaks out and ur just like whoa wtf body I know I’m sad but not that sad
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So, I’ve decided I’m done with Reddit, and Tumblr for the most part.
Basically all I ever do with these sites is scroll down them to gain some form of satisfaction that I am accomplishing something. I am not. It was fun for a while, but now it is compulsive. I’m wasting time that I need to do too many other things.
I will still play League, and check facebook here and there- I gain no satisfaction scrolling down that mess- but I’m basically going to stop using tumblr and reddit unless I’m :
a.) lacking ideas.
b.) research(Reddit is a nice resource for sources in some subreddits.)
c.) for tumblr specifically, I will use it to start writing… things. Proper stuff… like scripts… poetry, maybe?… stories… Not sure. I have some things I want to write here and there, but I never do take the time. I’ll also publish artwork here and there.
I really think it is important that I do this, because I really am not generally comfortable sharing things with the world, especially people I don’t know, so I need to do this.
Things that I have to do:
APUSH Notes and Study!!!
Practice writing essays.
Apply to colleges
Work with Zimmerman
Get portfolio together.
Maintain contact with Friends
Come up with new ideas. My mind hasn’t really created many new things for a while. I have had a lot of other things on my mind, to the point that nothing new has happened on it’s own. I think I’m going to have to be more active in ideas than I have been in the past.
Start writing scripts and making characters with back story. I used to do this, but I stopped, because somewhere around 8th Grade, I deemed it “lame” or something, and started only wanting to make full scenes with backgrounds and stuff. I think my landscape stuff is pretty decent because of this, but my humans and ability to put humans in poses sucks.
Learn why large slumps of “art suck” happen to the point of immobility. Possibly overcome slumps anyway by accomplishing above things anyway to point that the slumps no longer matter. Ggggoooooddd… this is why I feel so inadequate and unprepared for college. My abilities are inconsistent, and my basic techniques suck often. I do this weird “petting” thing when I draw, but it makes all of my early sketchwork a mess. I know it is supposed to be, but there’s something about it that just makes it unusable.
Anyway, yep, I’m done. Bye. I’m going to go do AP Notes now.@1 day ago
@1 day ago with 63952 notes
why are girls expected to go through an experimental lesbian phase but u never hear about dudes goin gay for a while whats up w/ that
cause that would be realllllly weird, unlike girls doing it. guys actually like when girls do it.
do me a favor and staple all your fingertips together